Kris clenched his fists as the skin on his entire body crawled… as his heart beat so heavily into a rythm to break his chest open and, perhaps, in a way, he almost wanted that to happen. At last a new way of revealing his heart. As tense as his body was in that moment, his inner being was laughing at the ridiculous idea of this literal exposed heart. But all that did reach the surface of his body was a vague smile.
"Such a good reply to my own smile, my friend."
…Ferr whispered. The long haired man slightly tilted his head forward in a beckoning gesture of "please follow me… " as he turned slowly to continue their way through the damp, dark streets. Finally letting some air out of his lungs, Kris moved to the plead of this strange companion he had met so very recently. Enthralled… yes, he was. Scared? To some extent. One thing that kept spinning around in his mind was how pleasurable this game was… how delicious the sweet fragrance of danger that simply oozed from Ferr's entire body depite his overwhealming gentleness. The calm before the storm that destroys everything in it's path… How very poetic.
They walked for a while longer that seemed like an eternity compressed in minutes. Ferr turned and smiled yet again at the photographer and with an elegant stretch of his arms with his slender fingers unfolded… he presented the entrance to an old but tasteful building.
"Please…"
Kris obediently followed Ferr up the circular stairs and for a brief moment he felt like he was slipping out of his consciousness, out of the sense of time and out of this world. He stopped for a moment and gazed down the spiral to let out an almost unperceivable sigh then continue his way up. Ferr was guiding him in the darkness of the corridors until they both reached a massive door that looked almost ancient even for the building they were in. A few swift movements of Ferr's hands, followed by the typical clicking sound of the unlocked door and the next thing Kris knew was that this stranger's hands were placed on his shoulders and slightly pulling him inside with the same benevolent smile his lips had upheld before. No resistance… the young photographer almost cursed himself for that for a time's instant, quickly being distracted by the deep mosk scent that lingered in this stranger's room. Mingled with the faint smell of a lit candle, he could also feel the inviting scent…. of old books. How much this last fragrance talked to his soul… how many hours had he spent as a young boy in the library of his father. And how the bittersweet melancholy slowly took over him now remembering all of this making him almost forget about the constant presence of danger or intrigue. Or even the touch of the beautiful man's hands on his shoulders.
"Ah, my friend. Welcome to my home. It pleases me greatly to see all of your previous scars and masks melt away."
… the young photographer flinched slightly, being pulled from the spell he himself nurtured. But indeed he did fear less… he did care less and was now slowly coming to the realization of the simple fact that he had nothing to lose to begin with. He was not at the top of a spiral from where he could fall to his destruction… he was at the bottom of it. He bit his lower lip as an ultimate innocent curiosity of what his immediate future held crept over his being -and- his body. He felt refreshed in this deep, inviting, darkness.
"So you finally do trust me. I thank you, my beautiful friend. I wanted you to leave your present life in a hope that perhaps you could find something better and more suitable to you. You see… if one such as yourself is not in his real place… he would suffer. Greatly. Then start to fade… and… just… disappear into the oblivion of the masses."
…the young Kris just listened, absorbing every word of it. Still he felt like his layers were being peeled away from him leaving the core of his being bare … but in a strange way, not vulnerable at all. He felt stronger. And a deep dark urge of hunger began to grow in him… slipping rapidly throughout his cells and fibers… from his skin… to his innerds… to his heart.
"… you can feel that. And I can see what it does to you. Do not fight it… but for once, let it roam inside you freely and you shall see what that feels like… how much richer it is to even what you feel now."
The strange man removed his hands from Kris's shoulders and let his coat slide off his own shoulders and let it fall almost carelessly onto the back of a remarkably carved armless chair. Then shifting his eyes back into the young man's eyes, he uncuffed the sleeves of his black shirt to free his hands and wrists… he moves his fingers in a series of simple gestures that resulted in the removal of the photographer's coat and the unbuttoning of the first two button's of his shirt. The young man payed almost no attention to what was being done to him… but merely enjoying this feeling of hunger that took the power of a fire now inside his being. How gorgeously outrageous it felt… how empowering and true… He felt how his former self was slipping even further away from him, making room for this new energy to manifest. He wanted that… he wanted the change… he invited it and wanted to keep it.
"…you shall have it, my beautiful. Let me be your guide though the labyrinth that is the real you…"
I like the name Ferr, it sounds something like you would call a pet lion or something. It's cute in some ways and ferocious sounding in others. I'm curious about who he is actually. I definitely get a sort of "fantasy" vibe from that part.
He's obviously quite smooth and good looking, not the type of person most people would resist but at the same time he infers a lot more than he gives away so he's like a blank slate, a very nice looking blank slate.
There seem to be a lot of angles to it. I mean for one we don't know what will happen next. Are they going to have sex or is there an alternative reason for Ferr inviting him over?
If Ferr sleeps with him then what after that? Will he found out who/what Ferr is and will Ferr just let him walk away, hurt him or give him something to do?
It's a combination of mysterious stranger that you know you shouldn't trust but are too helpless to run and not knowing where this special situation is leading to.
If I was in that situation personally I would stay because if I walked away I'd never get it out of my head and thats the amazing thing lol.
Very glad to see it invited to a bit of thought!
Would you like to write for a living or do you have something else in mind?
You have great intra- and interpersonal abilities, something rare these days.
I mean imagine you were approached by Ferr. I think the situation would turn you on and you would love it. Plus I also think Ferr probably isn't human and comes from elsewhere and I think you wouldn't let it go till you found out where he is from. If you could go to where he was from you would go at least for a while. I don't know you that well but I am already pretty sure that you love a little mystery yourself, you wouldn't be able to stop yourself in that situation.
On the other hand you are a very intelligent and intriguing girl. I mean at least if I met you in a bar and you talked to me in the way that you do when you write thoughts on your blog.
Your just mysterious. I mean look at your sense of humour, its everywhere. I'm not sure if you know about British humour but the way you express yourself is usually how we joke around here, you are very good at doing it.
Then there are elements of darkness in you. It's already obvious to see your a very individual person, you are you and you wouldn't have it any other way. That isn't bad but as you know when most people meet somebody that isn't like everybody else they get scared a little.
The last part is that you are a really nicc girl. You might not admit it, but you are. Most people that think themselves nice are really bad people. You care about things, you care about things a lot. You probably wish you didn't but you do.
See Ferr has all these qualities. Imagine if a foreigner came to town and he asked to buy you a drink and the two of you started talking. You'd probably cover all manner of subjects and he would probably be intrigued by you but apprehensive too because he is far away from home and "out of place".
Can you imagine the emotions he would be feeling if he went home with you. On the one hand he would be turned on. On the other hand he might feel a little lost, he is going home with a girl that is much more than just a Barbie, he is going home with a girl he could talk to for years and not know everything there is to know about her because she probably doesn't entirely know herself either.
I think your personality is seeping into your stories. I think you would like to be Ferr but I also think maybe one day somebody else will be Ferr for you and you will like it.
I used to travel a lot and being in a strange city half ways across the world makes you feel excited but it also makes you feel a little scared. Those feelings come back to me everytime I read your stories, I am excited and I am a little scared and even though I know fear shouldn't stop me I can't get it out of my head entirely. I think you'd like to give somebody else those feelings but you would also love to feel it yourself.